Ups and Downs, Pressing Through

So many things have run through my head in the last week. Not sure what to even focus on right now. I have experienced great victories and failures all in 1 week. There are days that I fail, days that I seem to have no willpower whatsoever and other days when I feel like I'm on top and programmed to win. So once again, the message seems to be; NEVER GIVE UP!

Examples: Thursday is my day to do laps and then workout at the gym. It seems that I forget something every time I go and there's the perfect excuse to quit! I'm learning to laugh at myself and the stuff that happens to me. I'm learning to not allow the little things to stop me from reaching my goal. So, on Thursday I swam 10 laps and changed to workout and realized I did not bring any gym pants!! Ever try exercising in heavy jeans? Well, I pressed through and did it. Wasn't that bad. It always feels good to overcome. Friday I had a great time in the 2 classes I take. My Tai Chi instructor asked what I do as an occupation because he is amazed at how fast I pick it up. YEAH!! Just think, one week before I was terrified to even step foot in the room! You just never know what you're capable of until you try. Saturday I have personal training at the gym. So I had a few great days. And then I went out of town. I dislike traveling because I want to eat all the time. I haven't figured out why - maybe it's boredom. Bottom line - I blew my diet Monday & Tuesday. I really felt it in my Tuesday night workout - just had no drive to do anything. That's why it's SO important to have some type of support and accountability when you try to make change in your life.

I admit it, sometimes I feel like giving up. Sometimes I want to give in to every food desire I have and eat until I throw up (or pass out). Think of me what you will, it's the truth. What matters is I haven't gone there. I've messed up at times but I haven't given up. I've now lost 71 pounds in 5 months and 81 pounds in the last year. That is amazing to me. There is no way that I ever could have accomplished this without God. If He be for me who can be against me? God is for you. You CAN do EVERYTHING HIS Word says you can do. INCLUDING honoring Him with your body. I still have over 100 pounds to lose. But I'm no longer looking at what I haven't done, I'm rejoicing in every little step that has been accomplished.

Learn from your mistakes. Be aware of old behaviors trying to sneak up on you. Don't allow one day to turn into another and then another. Remind yourself of what you've accomplished - or if you're just starting out, remind yourself of why you've decided to do this. You are important. You are valuable. You are worth it.